Saturday, June 25, 2011

Little things

There is a trick to being a stay at home mom. It's not an easy job. I could go on and on about that simple fact, but instead, I am going to show you my current happy place. 

This sitting area is at the top of the stairs, with an open loft just to the left of the picture that looks down into our living room where there are floor to ceiling windows that look out to the front of the property. There used to be a huge sycamore tree, but the tornado took care of that. 

Every time I walk up the stairs I fall more and more in love with this little corner of our house. I love the paint color (wasabi, picked out by me, lovingly painted by Jeff). I love the comfy chair (Restoration Hardware, purchased second hand from a friend of a friend). Behind the sliding door (a flea market find, lovingly restored by Jeff) there is a sleeping child. 

In the morning I make a point to rise at least 30 minutes before Noah. I make a press of coffee, pour some in my favorite mug, and head up the stairs to my comfy corner. I can look out the windows from there and watch the birds who have built a nest on the roof come and go. Even though the sycamore tree is gone there are still some well established pecan trees, whose leaves look fantastic against a blue sky. 

I love sitting in that chair, drinking my coffee. The things that make it special to me (the colors, the lingering smell of polyurethane from the door, the soft leather) are so simple. But they recharge me, and prepare me for the day ahead, staying home with my boy. I NEED moments like this to be a successful mother. They do not have to be extravagant, but they have to happen daily, or I start to lose myself in motherhood and life. 

Oh, the little things in life... I am so grateful that I have learned to slow down enough to enjoy them!

Friday, June 24, 2011

Wait, I have a blog?

I do this every time something major happens. I stop updating my blog. Why? I don't know. Now I don't know where to begin... how about the TWENTY FOUR hour trip (door to door) from Misawa back to Raleigh? Thank goodness Jeff was able to come back with us, I might have lost it. Especially when we had bad turbulence and I freaked my freak out, crying 'I just want things to STOP SHAKING!'

We came back to our condo that we still own, which was destroyed by the guy who was renting from us. I mean, uninhabitable. Jeff worked his ass off to get it to the point where we could move back in and off of my sisters couch. It was nasty. But we bought some furniture (some new, some used) and started making a home here in Raleigh. We knew that Noah and I would stay State side until Amelia is born in the beginning of August. Jeff had to go back to Misawa for work. 

Then there was a tornado. 

Our condo building was right in the path and sustained some pretty major damage, including ripping off the roof in one spot, thus damaging the sprinkler system, thus flooding some of our neighbors' homes. Our condo was not damaged at all, thank goodness. But since the building was hit so bad in some areas, it was condemned. Noah and I were once again displaced from our home. We went to stay with my sister Jessica. It was about 2 weeks until we were able to come back to the condo.

4 weeks pass by from when Jeff left for Misawa and his return back to Raleigh. During said 4 weeks I discover I am not cut out to be a single parent. Ever. It is amazing how much Noah and I depend on Jeff when we are all together, and how well we all work together, and how his absence from us is so very noticeable. I do not say it or recognize it nearly enough, but I am one lucky girl to have such a devoted father to our children. 

Jeff returns! Home improvement projects continue. The condo now looks AMAZING (know anyone who wants to buy it, by the way??). Jeff decides to put in his 30 day notice with his company, knowing that there is an opportunity with the Department of Navy that would move us OUT OF MISAWA (best news ever) and down near Tokyo to Yokosuka. Weeks go by, we are all home together for the longest stretch since becoming a family. Jeff gets the job offer (woo hoo!) and heads back to Japan, this time to Yokosuka and not Misawa, six weeks after he arrived.

So that about catches this lonely little blog up on the past couple months. We are still figuring out the details of the move from Misawa to Yokosuka (we still have our house in Misawa, which is full of stuff, which needs to be moved... but not before we find a house in Yokosuka...). So many details, so much to do... and here I am 34 weeks pregnant!

Life has finally begun to settle down since it was shaken up by the earthquake in March. Despite all that has happened, all the changes... it has still been a fantastic couple of months. I realized just how strong we are as a family and what we are capable of taking on. I realized how lucky I am to be married to Jeff and how lucky our children our that he is their father. 

And little Amelia is growing, kicking, causing heartburn and all the other relative discomforts that come along with being 34 weeks pregnant. My heart is being a trooper... beating a bit faster than it should but nothing too alarming. I do have some pain at my incision area, but heck, it was just a year ago that I was having open heart surgery! I think it is just the scar tissue stretching. 

So... life is going on, and I will start blogging about it.